Several reasons why one may exhibit such pattern:
1. Subconscious inclination towards what’s unavailable to you. Feeling familiar with being deprioritised so setting yourself up to experience that again to confirm your negative beliefs about yourself.
are you treating people like community or treating them like a resource to pull from? are we pouring back into people? community care doesn’t look like draining people and asking them to sacrifice for your personal gain.
i don’t wanna feel that feeling of finding out some sneaky stuff and having my heart drop to my stomach ever again .. it’s just not something you get used to. it’s makes you sick every single time..
Want to hear something amazing about crying?
Emotional tears have higher protein concentration than irritant tears, which makes them fall down your cheeks more slowly—increasing the chance they’ll be seen and solicit care.
In literal ways, your body is built for community.