I reaaaaally wanna fucking slice my arms open im genuinely the most triggered ive ever been in my lkfe i want to killl myself infront of him so he can see what hes done to me
Like being anorexic. Dont consider myself anorexic anymore cuz 111 & 5'3 like ive let myself go, but it gave me a purpose in life & gave me something to look forward to, i cant gaf now cuz i just plan on fucking deinking myself to death again tomorrowZ
-threshold. Its not like ive never been suicidal. I attempted once with pills but no one ended up finding out, olayed it off like i was hungover. I just cant imagine making it to my 30s and everyday feels like absolute torture i cant take it.!!
I miss not having friends and i can just kns and not feel bad; dunno shats wrong with me, everythings going great i just hate my life and im 15 lbs over my lw and im just an alcoholic cokehead atp i dunno how to carry on
Im thinking abt my internet friend feom yrs ago and how his addiction was sh and finding new ways to kill himself, it finally worked. 5 yrs ago, around this time of year. I dunno what lead him there but i wonder how lonv of a time it wil take me to cross that