I feel like I should say if you think you're "on my side" by saying genuine racist hateful things to black people in the fandom, then it is my personal belief that you should shoot yourself in the head with a gun.
I can guarantee you that I want to hear your real voice instead of an ai. No matter how self conscious you are I can't feel your joy without you on the microphone. So much of my recommended is whiteboard videos with ai voices and I am begging to hear your flawed human voice.