๐ถ Baby since you left
I been strugglin to lay my head down,
I got these demons in my head I just cant shake now,
never thought I'd be the one to set the same drips,
But baby since you left I think I'm gonna relapse. ๐ถ
Feel like I'm drifting off. Feel like I'm disappearing. I had one friend and now shes gone. I have no one to blame but myself. Starting to feel like no one would notice if I wasnt around anymore...
Working two jobs.. trying to keep my mind so busy that it doesn't think about my broken heart.. missing her more then anything hoping one day I can see her again, but until then I'll just keep grindin and keep trying to be the man she will always deserve.
Well these last two days have made it officially the hardest days in my life... my great grandpa is dying and the one person I want to call and open up to told me to fuck off. I'm so broken. If this is a test I'm going to fail. I'm not strong enough for this..
Really tired of this feeling I've been feeling.. a life without you isnt a life worth living.. every day I grow darker in my thoughts. My heart breaks more. And I take one step closer to the edge... be my angel again and I'll be the man of your dreams.
I fucking hate this.. every day is a test to see if I'm gonna make it through.. and everyday the longer I'm without you I crumble and fall deeper into a hole. I cant breathe without you.
Really tired of sittin here in this empty apartment bein fuckin miserable. Wantin to go home but I cant. So I sit here and drink all night by myself prayin she will text me and then when she finally does its just for her to remind me how much she doesnt want to be with me. ๐
They say when it rains it pours..but also. The rain turns into floods. Which feels like your drowning. The earthquakes that rock your world. Tornadoes that will rip it from its roots like it's nothing. And finally hurricanes that do it all. That's my life. A natural disaster.
One day I will stand infront of the lord for judgement and he will ask "what did you do with all your love?" "Where is your heart?" And I will remind him "no matter the distance, she will always have my heart and all of my love will always be hers."