@pausedME I have lived with this pain since my mid teenage years. I have been living with pain longer than without now.
I emphasize with you. All of you. I've been bedridden. I've been beyond a 10 & suicidal with my severe chronic pain and chronic fatigue. It is a painful existence.
Understand that an important part of your energetic hygiene practice is at cleaning, clearing and purifying your home, as an energetic process. Your home is a living space that will reflect whatβs going on with your personal energy.
Dear Lord, please heal my mommy. Please, heal those who are in the hospitals right now.
Please, be with those in Elder Care homes & under supervision type care in general. Recovery Centers, Assisted Living, & Senior Centers. I didn't realize how neglect affects their lives. π’
This morning, my entire lower back was in spasms. π³π³π³π’π’π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ’π’π’π’π€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π’π’π’π’π’π’π’π’ I'm extremely exhausted right now!
Dear Lord, please heal my mind, body & soul. Strengthen my lower back & heal all that is causing problems, too. ππΌππΌππΌππΌππΌππΌππΌπππππππΌππΌππΌ
Whyyyyyyy???!! #CFS#Sleepy why am I beyond exhausted? Why do I sleep all day and all night? I don't know π€·πΌββοΈ it annoys the H outta me because there has to be something more to my life than sleeping & severe chronic pain & sleep & zero energy ....... π€ π€ π€ π΄ OMG!
OMG! The fatigue is beyond extreme. Seriously. Idk how to function outside of work because all I can do is SLEEP. Many of you know that already.
Headaches behind my eyes. Unbearable. π₯Ίπ€¬π€¬π€¬π€¬π’π’π’π’ππππππ°π°π₯΅π₯΅ππππ’πππ
Heavy Eyes. My back gave out this morning!
A lot of people donβt listen to their intuition because they donβt actually want honest self reflection, they want to stay asleep in the fantasy.
Listening to intuition forces you to become accountable and confront where you are being complicit with your own suffering.
Ladies, when you are wearing tights make sure your dress is always UNTUCKED from your waistline!!! OMG!
My boss just told me, well, showed me: untuck your dress! #Humiliation#Embarrassed OMMGG!! However, my tights are a solid black so it appeared as pants & a dress top! π€£π€£π€£
I donβt mean to neglect this account.
I try & focus on the positive.
But, I need to document my journey, too.
Still, all I do is sleep.
Go to work.
Go to group.
Go home.
Sleep.
OK! So, the lights were sporadic - so, between the lights, at nighttime, it was pitch black out!
When I stumbled 3 steps & they took 3 steps in the woods! Then, I was about to continue down the road - 3 steps, it copied me again! I took off running! LoL! #Bigfoot CopyCat Story!
When something mic mics your every step from the sidelines & knows exactly how many steps you take & itβs nearly pitch black out, but, there are lights down the mile road- how can they see how many steps you took? It was creepy & scary! LoL! #Bigfoot ?? Possibly!!!
Once, I was around 19! I wanted to walk to visit my Mom! It was around 9:00 pm or so! I began walking down this long road - only woods around me/down the roadway, too.
I lose balance. 1. 2. / Echo. 1.2. Steps from woods.
I walk 3 steps. It copied me, again! Then, I took off!
When I didnβt have work, it was similar, but different. I would sleep longer - 2 -3 or 4 days! I donβt know how I wake up for work?? I really donβt??!!
OMG! I hate this!
I get home from work Friday evening around 9:30. I got picked up earlier than usual! So, that was a plus! But, I literally slept from Friday evening around 9:40pm until Sunday morning 3:20 AM! Solid! At least 30 hours solid - well, I woke up for 5 mins. Sat!