Kyle Mussman

MAGA - MAHA - MAFA - 1 of Many - 20:26 Justice Commeth - Nessun Dorma. Happily married / no DM

[Kyle Mussman @SmileyInthewind]

11 YEARS - 11 MONTHS - 11 DAYS ago I walked out of Schick Shadel Hospital with my mind cleared and my sobriety! A life time ago and yet I remember it vividly. I have been one of the lucky ones, in that I have remained sober, have a complete understanding on what my demon was, abandonment issues from being adopted and I am also sure I have the addiction gene passed on through my biological linage. Through the process at SSH treatment program I was able to get out of the dark place that I had no idea was my issue and in fact thought it was stress from business, recessions, and relationships that crashed on the rocks. When I left SSH I flew back to Walla and sat at my bar eating the best steak and looking at all of the alcohol bottles and had no desire and to this day have no desire for alcohol. If I think about the 10 day treatment program I went through, I can still taste that nasty taste of alcohol and make myself sick, so I don't think about it as I can honestly make myself throw chunks if I think hard about those 10 days. Sure my memory cells can recall and miss how food & wine and saki and sashimi can pair so well and enhance the flavors of both, but those thoughts are just that and distant memories. Unfortunately, SSH no longer exists in Seattle as it was bought up by a large hospital corporation and then shut down, they were too successful and a couple years older than AA. Big Hospital money took down the potential cure for millions of people and buried it, very sad as I had recommended this program to several other friends that have also had great success. I remember a short time after I got home I went and got the tattoo on my drinking wrist - SSH 11-15-13 as a reminder every time I drink anything on how lucky I am to have slayed my demon. A dear friend and someone who is also been sober for several years longer than me made a comment something like "don't regret that tattoo and have to change that date" as most folks struggle with their addictions. To those that are still struggling, I pray you can over come with the proper help, will power but most importantly figuring out that trigger, that demon and then how you shut it down (it mostly likely is not what you think it is). To those that have been able to keep their sobriety, may you never go back to the place you fought so hard to get out of. Life is a wild ride, Do Epic Shit and take it with no regrets. Now, in regards to my abandonment issues, I am one of the luckiest persons as I have a loving birth mother that was willing to give me a chance at life that she could not give me at the time (takes time to figure that out - abandonment issues are a real brain fucking when you are talking about your birth parents). I had the most amazing wonderful parents that adopted me with a simple up bringing in rural Indiana that were my role models and instilled my values, morals and ethics. And I have 16 adopted and 1/2 brothers and sisters, some which I really enjoy hanging with and some others that have shown themselves to be complete assholes and I no longer associate with. I share this in hopes that someone might read this and dig deeper into themselves to figure out how to cage their demons, put them in a lockbox and take the next step to getting out of that dark place. Next big struggle for me, getting rid of my sugar & carbohydrate addictions which is going really well since I have made it my focus again, but it is extremely difficult as sugar is in so many products and carbs are just worthless for you. So a modified Carnivore / Keto, high protein / high saturated fat diet, going exactly against the previous recommendation of our health officials. You know, the folks that say Fruit Loops is healthy for our kids for breakfast and then wonder why little Johnny acts up in class when his sugar high crashes, then say he has ADHD and they have a pill for that. Anyone can make a positive change in their lives starting right this minute. Anyone can take that first step, even if you need to ask for help, which is always hard to do. Some of us have to hit Rock Bottom before we can start the climb out, I did, many times, thank God the last time took. I want to live to 88 and have 25 more healthy years and then what ever happens in that last year will be determined by the choices I have made and continue to make. I hope to see my granddaughter and grandson get married, have kids and live productive fun lives. Anyone that ever wants to talk with me about the past, present or future, you got my digits. Oh, and the tattoo on my left wrist "Live the Life You Love, Love the Life You Live, even in my darkest hour I have loved the life I have been blessed to live. Those that know me, worked with me know that I have always said "Rock Forward", the reason I have said that is because I have hit Rock Bottom in the past. Rock Forward is the battle cry to get off your ASS, start the climb up and out, make the changes and do the work, on yourself, your family or your job that you work for. KA&TN. K

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@SGTWipper1Each Rock Forward

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@RealJamesWoods Yep, he has been fuckin with their rice bowl

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@Hunter_Eagleman @boycottempire He votes with democrats on all the major bills, talks moderate, but they own him

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@AwakenedOutlaw I have been saying that since the day he got reelected. Gotta take down the entire deep state cause God forbid somebody come after his beautiful granddaughter Kia. And everybody in his orbit is vulnerable.

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Morning from the LowCountry, make it count

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@TexasRepublic71 @lsferguson Have a Happy Happy

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@DKH013 @jake22_h EPIC memories and a nice bass!

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@luluHru @Serenityin24 If there was a photo of “grasping for straws” I bring you Judas Pence.

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I believe Iran (Mullahs / leadership) funded by Obama is part of the Deep State that needs to be burnt to the ground never to crawl back out again. I am willing to endure short term pain for the safety of my family and future family members. This too shall pass, maybe like a kidney stone for Iran, put it will pass.

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@Sassafrass_84 Absolutely

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@AmberforMAGA Mind reader

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@BollingerTodd @golub Opinions are like assholes, but we’re all these dumb shit liberals born with like 10 of them. I bet that fucking panty waste couldn’t do one round across the deck and at my age I am not sure I could either - LOL

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@Riflemanscreed2 We have 1,000 lbs arriving on June 4th from the Landry’s for our bass pond

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@CoVet_81 @Real_Ames Traitor

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@CodyTheSeabee Camped for years with our kids and have a lifetime of Kodak photos and memories. Empty nesters and the wife and I both agree our idea of camping now is slow room service at a 5 star hotel

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@1Nicdar I wish I could have had grandchildren first!

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@EricLDaugh Add Jellyroll to the line up and many other patriots.

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With the drought persisting in our area of SC, my herd has been gorging on corn & protein pellets in my feeders. I told myself I would put some cameras back out in June and that is on my list for this week to see how they are developing. Hope I have some nice antler growth like that buck!

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@HaroldWren22 I second that

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@_rockytop_biker @EricaRN4USA Running a 121, sweet