no one talks about how draining it is when your mood constantly switches between "keep going, it will get better" and "i can't do this anymore, im about to give up." it's like living in emotional whiplash. one hour you're hopeful, the next you're spiraling
if a website asks me for a verification code and i check my email and it's not in there within 0.1 picosecond of the request i roar and swing my arms madly and start hurting those close to me
My therapist once told me: "The guilt you feel for setting boundaries is a sign of how deeply you were trained to abandon yourself."
She was right.
That guilt isn't yours. It's left over from someone who punished you for having needs.