a while ago, i consciously worked on being non-avoidant and communicating better. my conclusion however is: stay avoidant. no let anybody put you for talk.
it is an unwritten rule of life that after every prolonged period of hardship and uncertainty, there is going to be a period when you are going to achieve quantum leaps across multiple areas of your life. the only requirement is that you do not give up on yourself.
Some of you need to accept that the street is not for you. It's very okay to find a partner you are committed to, and love the fvck out of each other.
You're not a player or bad bitch, and that is okay.