Bleeding Ana

♡ Anorexic | Self-harmer | Depressed | Suicidal | Anxiety ♡CW: 121.6 | GW: 115 | UGW: 100 ♡ I am always here for anyone & everyone. ♡ (Avi is NOT me.)

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I'm cursed. Cursed to forever see the death of everyone. Sometimes it's me killing, or the one being killed. I can't stop myself. It hurts.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

Hey everyone, if you don't already, please go & follow @_Frozen_Soul_ - that's one of my other accounts, & I think I might make it my main!

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

Everyone is telling me to let them go... but how can I?

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I'd give anything to go back to a few months ago, and make sure I didn't lose them. Because fuck do I need them now... I still love them.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I like my new shoes..

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I've been trying to be strong, but fuck... I'm not that strong. I'm not.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I always knew I couldn't fight this battle alone... I thought they knew that too.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

The battle is more brutal than ever. The meds have kicked in and brought machine guns, but my whole mind is revolting.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

And now one of my only anchors, my brother, is going off to college.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I've been fighting this battle all by myself for over a month now... and I'm getting tired.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I've had to go through this all alone... and I don't know if I can keep going much longer.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

@xpressionism_ thank you so much ♥

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

He's always been there for me, without fail. I could always count on him.
Until now.
When I've needed him more than ever, where is he?

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

Crying because my sad excuse for a life...

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

Everything reminds me of them...

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I lost them and now I feel like I'm losing him too. We haven't really talked in weeks...

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

I miss my best friend. I miss my best friends.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

The only person I feel like I can completely trust anymore is my little sister...

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

@I_hate__myself_ you can just keep my stuff. I'm not dragging Eric into this for no good reason.

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

@I_hate__myself_ I'm not trying to be friends or anything again. Can't we at least talk like acquaintances?

[Bleeding Ana @Soul_of_Scars]

@I_hate__myself_ why can't you just talk to me?