I love sleeping because everyone loves me in my dreams and my ex still loves me and im still friends with everyone from elementary school (yeah its embarrassing i still think about them) so I want to sleep forever. I want to be gone. Stuck in nonreality.
You never cared for me.
ive always had a sick fantasy, to be loved to the point of obsession. i want someone to be consumed by me, to crave me, adore me, and fear losing me. i want to be their weakness, their everything, and have all their love belong to me. forever and always.
At the same time god i miss it i miss the ignorance i miss not knowing i miss thinking i had online friends who liked me and were my only true friends and i miss not being alone now
I dont even know if those stupid damn abusive selfish grooming bastards still stalk me anymore but kash and ryan if you fucks are reading this then rot. Rot.
I cant take it anymore i miss the people who abandoned me i miss my groomers and i miss my grandpa i hate that these people all became horrible people I miss thinking they cared about me