Suki

₊˚⊹ ᰔ a cat in the forest ⸝⸝.ᐟ⋆

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

ᯓ★ Unpinning at 215
ᯓ★ cw : 227

[sacrificial_stray @xoxobfore]

Having an ed:

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

🤷It just feels very mean. I understand it can be annoying seeing "stupid" questions but that person most likely posted it as a vent or frustration with themself, as most people tend to do on edtwt. Everyone needs to get nicer and more understanding I beg . 😭

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

😭I wish ppl would stop making fun of that person asking if the amount of cals in their omad is even an omad. Guys we're all disordered and EDs are very competitive I think it's actually not insane for someone to ask and doubt if their omad counts as an omad??????

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

I don't even want to die I think life can be enjoyable but there's part of me that wonders if this ed will ever kill me. Will anyone care then?

[꒰♱ᥲᥣᥱ᥊ᥲ♱꒱ @Alexa8344196430]

i isolate myself in fear of hurting others but i also hurt them by pushing them away

[۠ @deathiac]

how i feel choosing little to no activity on weight loss apps .

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

Also, this feels so weird but I hope as I lose weight my shoe size gets smaller too. I'm so insecure about it. 😭

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

When I'm skinny I can finally do cosplay. 🥹

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

I went walking on the treadmill for 15 minutes even tho I was super nauseous. Yipeee 🎉

Altho I took a shower after and it was the worst feeling ever 😭 I fr thought I was gonna faint.

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

I won't but mannn I just want something with flavor. 🥲🥲🥲

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

So tempted to break my fast I'm hungry as hell. 🫠 400 cal omad might not be the move.

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

I actually don't do anything the entire day.
No job, no hobbies, no working out, nothing.
Just sitting and laying down.
I can't find it in me to do anything.

[vivi (^з^)-☆ relapsing @st4rv1vi]

i rarely hear anyone talk about how BORING it is having an ed.. i feel like i'm living in limbo waiting for when i can eat next or for the next time i weigh myself to see if number on the scale has gone down,, and nothing else matters bc i'm just too tired

[ruth ໒꒱ @saintlygenesis]

ignoring everyone's messages and only going on edrtwt

[⭒ scott ⭒ @harvests1972]

getting rage baited while starving

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

I fixed up my strawpage a bit more, I think it looks cuter now. :D

[ok fyucha ⋆˚꩜｡⁵ ³⁴³ ¹⁶⁸ @1fyu4a]

im deathly afraid of being seen as stupid yet i dont give my brain any nutrients so it can work properly

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

@menhara_magica For me I unpin it and then pin a new goal. I change my layout whenever I want to, but I wouldn't be shocked if there are people who change it after setting a new goal. 🤔

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

Of course I don't want to be this way, but I hate that I'm not taken seriously for my restricting and disordered behaviors simply because I am obese and have BED.

This relapse has been terrible. I'm eating so much less than I ever have in hopes anyone will notice.

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

I always want to interact with those "what's your biggest trigger" but how do you word "My biggest trigger is my family cause I want them to care and worry about me" ?

[Suki @SukiSukiMasu]

Another trigger is my friends. They talk to me about eating disorders or not eating the entire day knowing I've struggled with BED and restricting. In my head it's turned into a competition, so that they'll worry about me.