𖤓 sunni 𖤓

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cw: 75kg, ugw:45kg
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[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

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intro • edtwt
✦sunni •26• she/her
✦relapsing ana (/ednos?)
✦cw: 75kg • 160cm
✦ mdni & fatphobes dni
✦pro recovery always
♡ / ↻ for moot
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[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

@beemoboopy 55 burgers 55 fries 55 milkshakes

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Unfortunately for me I was careless this weekend & I'm scared to weigh myself bc I just know I gained 😔 I was just starting to consistently lose & I had to fuck it up ofc

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Actually losing my mind but I'm also losing weight so it's worth ittttt 🤪

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Okay cool I'm not down to omad yet but tmad is getting easy so we're making progress 😬 fighting the urge to binge is so hard man but I think finally my desire to be skinny outweighs the desire to binge 🥳

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Or did they just like manually calculate based on how far they walked? I'm so curious, I would absolutely fail having an ed if I didn't have all my lil apps n shit lol

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Did people used to actually manually count steps before smartphone & watches that count them for you? I could not fathom having to do that

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Trying to walk more is making me feel absolutely colossal 😔😔😔 walking shouldn't be hard, I should be small enough that I look and feel fragile 😭

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

@bunnneli Hiiii new mootie here 🫶🏻 I'm good today, I just got a walking pad so I'm excited to be obnoxious constantly walking when I'm home LOL how are you?

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Finally got a walking pad 🤪 maybe I can just walk all this weight off LOL

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

@kjur8p Felt this in my soul, my lw was 36kg & now I gained to 75kg 😭 it's genuinely soul shattering

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Wannarexic vibes today when I'm trying to restrict and end up binging instead 😔💔🥀 I'm gonna b fat forever, screaming crying throwing up 😭

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

I'm not trying to get skinny to be healthy I'm trying to get skinny to look good 😮‍💨 I will not stop viewing myself as disgusting until I lose a scary amount of weight

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Clearly my partner and I have very different ideas of what weight loss should look like for me LOL fck that I'm trying to get as skinny as possible as fast as possible, idgaf about how I "should" be doing it health wise lollll

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

Me when I feel like my cal limit is still big backed but my partner is telling me it's way too little 🫩🫣

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

so as much as I hate admitting, I'm currently sitting at 75kg with a bmi of 29 😔🤢🫪 gw: 45kg, goal bmi: 17

I need to seriously lock tf in bc I got a long way to go 😔

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

hadn't weighed myself in years bc it was helping my recovery but when I finally did it legit made me feel sick 🫠 ever since I found out my bmi I haven't been able to think about anything but getting skinny again

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

ANYWHO time to lock tf in with restricting & excessive exercise bc I'm tired of being a fat fuck 🤪

[𖤓 sunni 𖤓 @Sunnirexia]

first time posting on edtwt, why am I nervous 🫣

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