No one talks about how painful it is to slowly accept that the happy home, the loyal partner, and the beautiful family you dreamed about might never happen. You can have a good heart, pure intentions, and endless love to give, and still end up empty-handed. Life is often unfair.
do you ever notice yourself getting bad again. like, you know you’re not doing work that needs to be done, you know you’re not cleaning, you know you’re not taking care of yourself, you know all the things you need to do to start trying to feel better. but you just can’t
No one is coming to hand you a better life. There’s no perfect moment, no reward for waiting your turn. The world moves on whether you’re ready or not. So drop the expectation that someone will notice your struggle and fix things for you. Build your own way, step by step. Cry if you have to, but don’t stay there. Because nothing changes until you decide to take responsibility for everything that is yours to fix.
"but you survived."
i dissociate, like, a lot. my heart drops when someone raises their voice. i shut down very easily. i'm far too observant. i isolate often.
but yeah, sure. i guess i survived.
Sometimes I don’t even know what’s happening in my life. Life keeps teaching me lessons I never asked for, giving me experiences I never wished to have. Yes, they made me stronger but honestly, I never wanted to become this strong. I just wanted a simple, happy heart.