this is my last message to you. You don't have to reply. I just needed to say goodbye once, with everything my heart still carries.
I hope life is kind to you. I hope you find someone who loves you the way you deserve. Letting you go was one of the hardest things I've ever done-not because I stopped loving you,
but because I finally understood that love can't make someone stay.
I still remember the little things-the late-night talks, the laughter, the fights, the moments that once felt like forever.
It hurts knowing we went from knowing everything
about each other to becoming strangers.
Thank you for the memories, the love, and
even the pain. A part of me will always love you, just quietly, from a distance.
No disrespect to anyone, but God please don't send me another partner who doesn't know how to communicate, take accountability, or emotionally show up. I don't want a partner who's still battling their own issues, avoiding healing, depressed, or emotionally unavailable and refusing help. I don't want a partner who can't stand firm, speak with clarity, or take control of their own life.
You can show respect and care for someone on a surface level.
But it is really how you respect someone in your mind and heart.
How much does it matter to you that the things you do hurt them? and how will you take acountability when you do.
Tonight, i thought about zj again.
Not that he was great at being a good partner.
My brain just misses the dopamine that came with him.
Since the beginning, I knew I deserve better.
Someone who will cherish me and wont hesitate to place boundaries and take real action-
you can't scare away a man who actually likes you. you could yell, scream, ignore him, and throw a whole rock at his head. he'll still be like, "she's adorable, just a little angry today."
Now that I am single, my body and mind is struggling to hold in my strong sex drive and sexual flirt.
I have no one else to throw it onto.
Guess I'll find something... or someone :D
I hope I do
I have no where else to rant about my recent breakup and I do not want to bother my friends, so I will luahkan perasaan here.
Ok.
I felt so disrespected and not valued as your girlfriend when I have to find out on my own that you grew so close to your female colleague,
And for you, who I still love and will have once loved,
May you find peace in your mind and heart.
May the thoughts and demons that haunts you be banished from your being.
May you find happiness in every place you step into.