Plz don’t overfamilarize yourself with me before you get to know me… I am not auditioning for the character role you scripted for me in your head. I am a person outside of your mind.
I be tryna change circumstances God has specifically called me and placed me in because they are uncomfortable and then I be staying in situations God never had in store for me because they feel comfortable even though they are horrible
God knows that anything I am seen through I will use my voice as an instrument of the love poured into me. Use me as a testimony. Use me before I understand what’s happening. Help me to faithfully follow without the answers
So we in tune first and then we discern from that information. Y’all be wanting to stop short at the discernment part so you don’t have to be accountable for the choices you made but that’s the real work.
So first we use our intuition coming from your belly. Gotta be grounded in your root to feel the fire in your solar chakra. You in tune from your stomach and then travel up. The rest of the way up is a line of communication from feeling to thought to understanding.
Discernment -is the ability to judge, understand, and distinguish clearly between similar things or complex situations using careful perception.
Intuition-the ability to understand or know something immediately, without needing conscious reasoning or step-by-step logic.
Triggers are such an interesting topic. Because yes avoid being triggered but also you need your triggers to understand yourself and to witness your growth. So this is where discernment comes into play. Every trigger is not evil is not meant for you to run from is not
Intentional /harmful or deliberate. But some are. And this is where intuition comes into play. You can feel when someone is going out of their way to trigger you, pay you back, intentionally hurt you. And if you have been ignoring your intuition for so long that u are uncertain
Also I hate when I play along with someone tryna manipulate me by convincing them that I can’t see that they are lying… and then they try to step it up a notch… I be wanting to break character so bad like bish why did you think that was gonna work lol. Oh yea cuz of me
I had an ex who had to talk to me about how I hurt her feelings when I would purposely make us late to avoid the credits in the beginning of marvel movies. She was a huge marvel fan and enjoyed seeing what was upcoming and I would deliberately wait until the movie starts
to get us there. Guess what she was right. I was wrong.. I didn’t understand how important it was to her and I decided to override what she wanted for what I cared about and I was wrong. So once I spoken to about it I never made that mistake again. I still didn’t care
Imma know for a fact that you hate me. Because I could never imagine someone telling me that I’m doing something to cause them pain and my response is. .. just accept the pain and let me keep hurting you with access to all the good in you .
If I tell you this thing you’re doing is actually leaving a burn on my skin that causes a lot of pain to me. And you try to convince me to be patient, allow you to keep burning me, cut you some slack, give you grace, and that what is injuring me would never injure you.
where others write to remember, i write as an act of exorcism. to articulate a thought is to surrender it, giving it a body on the page so my spirit no longer has to carry its weight.