🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus)

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[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

♡ 𝓘’𝓵𝓵 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷 ♡

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

You were stronger than you thought you were and I wish you could have seen that.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

It’s been over a year now since you left. Not a day goes by that I don’t miss you.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

We miss you, sweet friend.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

They always loved christmas

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

I’m still wondering if there was more I could’ve done to help them. It’s something I feel guilt about. Could I have done more to help ease their pain or was I helpless?

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

I wish you could’ve found another way, my sweet friend. It is not the same without you.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

You have not been forgotten. You never will be.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

I can’t say enough how much of a privilege it was to know them. They were really special. God I miss them.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

Even though you’re gone I hope you know somehow how much we love and still think about you.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

I miss you.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

They were too kind for this world. They felt things so deeply. They took things so hard. They hurt hard. But they loved hard all the same. They were a shining light and even though that light has gone out, the world is brighter for having them in it for that brief time.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

Today was rough. I just sat by their grave and cried for a bit.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

I can’t believe they’ve been gone for 5 months.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

It’s strange how grief works. It’s like a filter you see everything else through once it’s there.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

The hotline number is 1-800-273-8255.

Please call it if you are considering giving up. Someone is waiting to talk to you.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

Every time I go to visit them I’m hoping it gets easier but it never does. It still hurts. I really wish they hadn’t left the way they did.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

It’s a tragedy that there is truly no one to blame for. Mental health and depression are difficult things to treat. Treatments are still imperfect and everyone is different.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

One thing I would like to say is I hope none of their friends blame themselves for what happened. I believe they were fighting a battle inside that only they knew the full extent of. I get the feeling looking back on our talks that they even hid things from me and we were close.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

Very bittersweet to hear about the new spinoff that’s coming. I know they would be excited for it.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

@hybrid_savior noted.

[🩷 Spinel 🩷 (hiatus) @SwellSpinel]

Next time I visit their grave I could bring a specific type of flowers if any of you would like to suggest some.