Sometimes I wish I could meet myself from someone elseโs point of view. Sit across from me. Feel my energy the way other people do. See what Iโm like without the inside commentary.
A lot of people want that, whether they admit it or not. We move through the world thinking we know ourselves, but we only know the version from the inside. We rarely experience the atmosphere we create around us.
Your energy is the sum of your thoughts. Not the words you post. Not the persona you perform. Your actual thoughts.
Sit somewhere quiet for ten minutes and just let your mind run. Donโt judge anything. Donโt fix anything. Donโt try to spin it into something positive. Just observe.
Watch what your mind defaults to. Is it criticism? Anxiety? Gratitude? Resentment? Curiosity?
Somewhere in those ten minutes, youโll feel it. Thatโs your energy. Thatโs what people are walking into when they interact with you.
Most of us donโt need to โfind ourselves.โ We need to sit still long enough to notice whoโs already there.
To grieve is to frighten the people you love.
And I felt it that night when mumโs questions wouldnโt stop. She was just trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I couldnโt look her in the face. I couldnโt tell her Iโd been ignoring her calls because I was tired.
Genuinely, Iโve been exhausted.
To grieve is to frighten the people you love.
I donโt remember the last time I felt connected with myself. Iโm lost in a myriad of problems, trying to survive and stay afloat. Making sure I maintain some kind of balance while juggling school and two jobs.
She sounded scared and worried. She thought of the worst things that couldโve happened to me. Then she bargained.
โIโll pay your rent for two months so you can take a break. Then you can happily talk to me. Then I wouldnโt have to see you looking so worked up.โ
And thatโs when I remembered Iโm not carrying this alone, and neither are you. So if youโre tired, let someone in.
Thatโs where the rest begins. Grief is heavy, but love is heavier. Let it hold you. You donโt have to be okay today. You just have to let someone love you through it.
And if you feel like thereโs no one, remember youโve got you
One day life will quietly end, not with a dramatic warning but in the middle of ordinary moments-unfinished plans, unread messages, dreams still waiting for their time.
The world will not stop; it will keep moving just as it always has.
Streets will stay busy, people will laugh, the sun will rise again.
And that is the strange truth of life: we are temporary in a world that continues endlessly.
So why spend our days trapped in worry, fear, or hesitation?
Why delay the small joys that make existence meaningful?
Laugh loudly, chase experiences, forgive quickly, and appreciate the moments that seem ordinary today. Because one day, these ordinary moments will be the most valuable things you ever had.