The older you get, the more you realize luck is mostly exposure. If you sit in the same place, have the same routine, talking to the same people, nothing new really happens. You have to tackle the world to win. Travel more. Talk to people.
You will be tempted to show that you are doing well, but it is important you resist the urge to perform for an audience that don’t matter. It’s very unnecessary.
Please carry your struggles with a touch of dignity. Venting doesn't always help. People treat you differently when they know too much information about you.