@SlappytheNinja This is all to say I do not have answers either but you're def not alone atleast in a general your sentiment and I wouldn't feel sorry for sharing how you feel. I can also say just from talking to you/taking film with you that you're far from a fuck up and you have what it takes
@SlappytheNinja I relate to alot of this. Also failed out of college cause of anxiety issues. Got fired two times this year so my self esteem is utter shit/I need money. Losing a partner I can't relate to but that's cause I've never had one in my near 27 years being alive.