elyanna

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sw: 229
cw: ehhh

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

hello!! not new to edtwt but lowkey relapsing and using my old backup

๑ 21 (mdni)
๑ hsw, pcos
๑ restricting, occasionally b+p
๑ weightlifting
๑ stoner
๑ diary/vent acc
๑ no hate allowed 👎

♡/↻/✉︎ to be moots and friends! need some desperately

#edtwt #edrtwt

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

so depressed, i gained 10 lbs overall bc of all the stress my bf puts me through

i miss when the stress he put me through would help me lose 20 lbs in 3 weeks 😭

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

moot on my other acc is so obsessed with his ex that it makes my sad i don't have a man obsessed with me so purely and lovingly 😭💔 he gen saw a fast food place do a pickle line and his first thought was "my ex would love this" STOPPPP 😭 free him

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

don't get me wrong i'm still big but i feel like i look sm worse than other ppl at my bmi :(

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

every time i get hungry and eat, it feels like a moral failing

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

@20smthloser HAHAHHA thank you you're so right

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

so i got back together with my ex but some guy i was messing around with while my ex and i were broken up invited me to an all expenses paid trip to montreal and lowk i want to go 😭 i probably won't though ... maybe

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

@20smthloser u def look less, u probably have muscle mass!! body tea fr

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

@20smthloser gorgeousina omg you look so good!! i'd say probably like between 23-24?

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

wtf today i woke up 165 lbs i hate my body why does it do this to me

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

Omg i had so many drinks last night and even ate fried chicken at a date and i was so scared to weigh myself this morning but i woke up at 160.8 lbs??? what the hell i'm like beaming with joy LOL i'm almost out of the 160s hell

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

@weightexcess 😀😀love my life

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

i went out on a date with an old guy yday (39 years old) and i discovered that he was a prof at the university im currently in for 10 yrs 😀 and there was a hot guy from my program that worked there who recognized me and said hi 😀😀 and his smile dropped after seeing the guy

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

Omg i had so many drinks last night and even ate fried chicken at a date and i was so scared to weigh myself this morning but i woke up at 160.8 lbs??? what the hell i'm like beaming with joy LOL i'm almost out of the 160s hell

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

Me af as fuck i literally just wait for people to give me a random $50

[wram @wramented]

The amount of young people living birthday-money to birthday money is terrifying.

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

@weightexcess 115 g protein is worth the 1300 cals don't even worry bc you're still in a deficit

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

when will i get out of the 160s hell

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

lowk my ex wants to get back together but i have like 3 dates lined up for next week (all of which i want to go to) so i'm telling my ex to just wait for time so i can "heal" LOLLLL

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

@bnny100 CLOSE IT'S A GYRO but i'm a shawarma girl through and through 😛 only got a gyro because that's where my friends went

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

ate this today i'm going to fucking blow up #worthit

[elyanna @TR1CKCARDS]

soft launching my weight to this hinge guy i'm really into because i'd rather he fuck off bc of my size BEFORE i meet him for the first time instead of after he sees me and my size LMAOOO