10 years today without mom & not a single day goes by without me thinking about what she'd think of the person I've become. Having her fav candy bar, Mounds today. All I've really learned is that grief & absence & silence is fucking weird and shifts a lot.
In the last few years I've managed to develop more of a backbone to stand up for and advocate for myself in personal, family, & job situations and honestly I'm so fucking proud of myself for that.
@carsonseal It's a weird internal battle of "they aren't the type of decent guy you wanna talk to anyway" and "damn it would be nice to have a boy say hi at the bar for a change no matter what lol"