@heartosy All this to say it’s not really fair to say this struggle is some self inflicted, self centered perception of reality. It was a fundamental understanding of the space I was allowed in the world. That I had to spend the rest of my life relearning how to exist in.
@heartosy I am an extremely capable person, fluent in socialization. Because there is safety in reading people, in picking up on tone shifts, in anticipating conflicts. I am also exhausted all the time. I struggle with agoraphobia so badly I’ve been in therapy for it for about 10 years.