My therapist asked me what I would do with my time if no one needed anything from me for a full week.
I said I had no idea.
She asked if that felt like freedom or like panic.
Panic, I said, immediately.
She said, when empty time feels like a threat, it means your identity is entirely built on being needed. And that is a fragile thing to build a life on.
I drove home and looked at my diary and noticed how little of it was actually mine.
First trailer for ‘OTHER MOMMY’, starring Jessica Chastain and Jessica Chastain.
The film follows a young girl who is threatened by a sinister demon that looks exactly like her mother.
In theaters on October 9.
cannot emphasize this enough as a practical life skill: learn how to say no to authority figures. Learn how to tell them that nothing they can do to you will change your mind. Disappoint your parents. You have to live your own life.
Steve-O details the terrifying moment he knowingly snorted cocaine mixed with his HIV-positive dealer's blood
"I snorted the blood of an intravenous drug user... that’s the extent"
"I had this drug dealer... I had him in my phone as his first name and then 'Everything'—because I got everything"
"If he doesn't pick up I'll just go over there and show up... sometimes I'd show up and the door would be unlocked but he would be passed out"
"He would inject cocaine... you could see blood squirted over the walls, even on the ceiling. I guess there's just some component to injecting cocaine that leads you to squirt your own blood all over the place"
"Over at the table where he would weigh out all of his drugs... there was a very noticeable residue of cocaine... but as I had sat down looking at it, there was of course blood... little tiny blood splatter on the residue"
"This is how just desperate and pathetic my addiction was, that I sat there knowingly scraping up this tainted, like blood cocaine, and I just sat there and snorted it"
"Which is so fucked up... I can't... like that's the extent"
Did y’all read the comic section of the paper when you were little? I tried to talk to someone about this popular comic and he was like “Who tf read the paper as a child???” I thought the comic section was for kids and all of us read it???
the best thing you can do for yourself is actively increase your surface area for luck to hit you. go outside, try new cafes, museums, events, take a new route home, speak to people, ask questions, side quest. the more you do, the more serendipity and synchronicity will find you.