i think it really does say a lot about you whether you instinctively conceive of the red button as the kill millions button, or the blue button as the kill yourself button
Before you sleep, ask the Lord to help you to be and stay consistent. If you want to build a consistent routine or need to work on long term goals, the key to long term results is to focus and work on small improvements everyday. May God help us to reach our goals & keep us safe.
Take hope in the fact that if God wants you to have something, you will have it. It may take some time, but whatever God has planned for you, no one can stop it.