As somebody who has been the recipient of nearly all varieties of abuse, I can say for myself (not sure about others), but it's difficult to believe that there is anything other than the deception and abuse that we have unfortunately grown accustomed to.
As of right now, I am currently living an existence I never thought was possible. Watching in real time my life continue to unravel and distort into something fiction couldn't even create. It's sad. I live in a world where there is virtually no loyalty. Any lessons I've needed to learn have been taught tenfold. I had one of my closest friends just died of brain cancer. The woman that I made vows declaring eternity with chose selfishness and image over her 4 children and myself. Even my best friend of 43 years, a man I considered to be the best man I know, has revealed to be codependent and weak. Would rather attach and remain at the side of his abusively cold, narcissistic wife as she has systematically ruined his life, even ostracizing his own children. Everybody wants to make men's mental health the next big thing, the next crusade, the next agenda. As somebody who has tied an electrical cord into a crudely fashioned device of demise, I can confirm people still would rather pick their own comfort and self interests at the first sign of difficulty and discomforts, rather than take a moment and sit next to somebody in the darkness amongst the chaos when that's all somebody really wants.….or at least help to keep their head above water.
I have a good piece of business that is finished after 20 years and it is definitely not for the weak….
Hey Señor @DabDabJimmy , would you like the first listen….?
I know that you never loved me,
I know that you never cared at all .
No my love we can’t be friends.
In fact I like you much better when you just pretend.
I know that you never loved me.
I know that you never cared at all.
Maybe just one more dance
Cause that’s as close as you’re getting to a True Romance …
I’m so tired of all of this shit I’m trying so fucking hard just to fucking keep my head above water so I can fucking breathe. I keep thinking I’m fucking doing the right thing and not one fucking thing is working out my way, Nothing . NOTHING!!! While I have to see my favorite person walk by me and her not give a fuck. All I want is an I love you. A fucking hug! A shred of caring or support from anywhere or anyone close to me… I never been so fucking alone all my life and I didn’t even do anything.
Start your Monday off with knowing you’re an “option”. Rarely is anyone ever “the pick”. That’s because it would mean both people who recite the vow, making the promise…….would have to honor it.