Making friends is genuinely difficult in this fandom. Everyone either wants you to message first, wants sex or lewd and when you don't give it or don't want to they dissappear, and no one wants to talk about issues that you have with said person.
being in your 20s is realizing you’ve been passively suicidal your whole life and never expected to survive for this long but now you have to actively participate in your own life and because you’ve spent all your life wanting to die you have no idea how to actually live