Deactivated my 50k twitter to avoid any uhm.. *unnecessary unhealthy withdrawals* (they've been happening from time to time and I just wanna avoid them and move on)
here's the goodbye doc if you haven't read it.
https://t.co/hzlg8fVfPB
@Miyno26 Glad we could resolve it, again im sorry that i missed it, the thought of "i owe him money" got lost in all that drama mess back then.
You are an amazing artist, and you did so much for me
so i coudnt let this unresolved.
@SoftBlockShield iirc, he striked my channel 2 times for the eteled music, I begged him to remove the strikes and I said something along the lines of "I'll do anything, i can even do money" then we made the deal.
Bitch held my channel hostage for money and i complied, fml 😮💨
(Fellas don't ever write a cryptic tweet at 1 am right after coming back from the fucking Minecraft movie, now I'm thinking of all the ways I could have worded that tweet better 💀)
@SoftBlockShield Of all the stupid things that happened between him and me, that has to be by far the stupidest. and nobody batted an eye when i called him out on jt, so he just got away with it! Lmao
@SoftBlockShield wait wtf
"i got ransomed out of $500 back then yeah"
....
"wait i got ransomed out of $500???? what the fuck how did THAT happen???"
me spending money on tmc was common back then, but a concept like that is so foreign to me now like wtf😭 bills are a bitch i want that shit back
@SoftBlockShield but he did know I was still in the ward, he was on Reincarnate after all, and he knew that I tried to kms over my youtube channel. so fucked up, yeah? one of the first thins i saw when getting out of the ward
@SoftBlockShield nothing to note i guess? i got credit card debt, car debt, fees, rent, taxes, and everything a normal person has.
and not even having to deal with those things have made me want to return to the "luxuries" of youtube monetization lol
@SoftBlockShield i have not paid attention to anything fnf since 2023 (avoiding it like the plague) so I wouldn't know much, so hopefully a pattern like that is not, you know, a thing
@SoftBlockShield Sure, I guess? everyone has taken those characters through the wringer already, (i swear to god, please dont check ao3 like i did)
so in the nicest way possible, i dont really care any more
@SoftBlockShield It happens to every big youtuber i guess, comes with the territory.
Now that i think about it, some weeks ago someone did find a youtube account I made as a kid ages ago, where I uploaded a single Mario Kart 8 clip that got 5 views.. now THATS the weirdest one.
@SoftBlockShield Well the TMC dream was mainly that I wanted to make people happy with my art and creations, and i was also really scared of living a dull 9-5 life (then look at me know lmao)
And on command? Dead. They died to me along with TMC. I created those mfs in middle school after all,so
@SoftBlockShield Oh yeah definitely. I always had the issue of people tracking down my accounts in all sorts of places and games, the weirdest one was my PSN account oddly enough lol
@SoftBlockShield Not planning to come back. Tmc symbolizes so much of what's wrong with me as a person, and I'm trying to leave just that behind. The pipe dream is done, and I'm ok with that.
And the normal 9-5 life I have now offers so much more to me than what TMC ever did, funnily enough.
@SoftBlockShield And I have been writing every single one of them down, ive been talking to my therapist, my family, and friends about them. ive been doing my best to move on. I was saying, that the very least a person like me can do, is realize their mistakes. And I did.
@SoftBlockShield I mean, sorry for the typo but, I was saying that I actually did do that. I'm still constantly looking back at all my actions from the TMC days with regrets. I'm seeing how careless, and stupid I was. I see it in every decision.