Anyway. That's where I'm at. Still figuring it out.
Still watching. Still learning how to see people not just with my camera, but with my presence too.
I think I became a photographer because I love watching people. Just... watching. The way they laugh when they forget someone's looking. The way their face changes when they remember something sad. I wanted to capture those moments. Not create them. Just... keep them.
I don't have it figured out yet. But I'm trying. I'm learning that maybe the best direction is the kind they don't even notice. The kind that just makes someone forget they're being photographed at all.
Not "stand here, look there." More like... "you're good. you're enough. let's just hang out and see what happens."
It's hard though. It's a weird line to walk. You want to guide without controlling. You want to help without interrupting.
But lately I've been wondering, what if directing doesn't have to mean performing? What if it just means creating a space where someone feels safe enough to be themselves?
In my head, directing always felt like... performing. Like I was asking someone to be someone else for a second. And that never sat right with me. I didn't become a photographer to build moments. I became one to witness them.