The road to recovering from abuse is long and hard. I am working on remembering that I deserve joy, rest, peace - as do you! Those things may look very different now compared to then, and that is ok. A deep breath, some toast, a tweet - moments of comfort add up to calm.
There is zero shame in the fact that we trauma survivors have to work harder than non-survivors & use specific tools & strategies to focus, accomplish goals, & feel good.
We didn't ask to be dealt this hand-- but goddamn if we're not going to play it intelligently.
Pay close attention to any person who has issue with you wanting to live life on your own terms. Terms that don’t hurt other people. Terms that give you security and peace. Pay very close attention.
If you are making art right now you have a moral and social responsibility to make it as offensive and heinous to the mission of those in power as possible.
Creative work is the last frontline of free speech, don’t give an inch.
Antifa is not an organization.
Antifa is not a group of organizations.
Antifa is not even a network of informal cells.
Antifa is any and all direct action against fascism.
Labeling antifa a terrorist organization means outlawing anti-fascist action.
Don't dismiss how much an abuser targets your intuition. As long as they can get you to hear their voice over your own, you will treat yourself like they have. There is a voice telling you that what they've done is not ok. Fight like hell to find it.
One of the toughest parts in leaving the scapegoat role is learning you don't lack value, you lack support. Leaving that role is often more confusing than it is freeing, until you fully exit. On your way out, be kind to every past version of you. That role was all they knew.
The people that you think are in your inner circle will be some of the first to stop caring when you become sick or disabled. Your circle of people that truly care is smaller than you think.
My son was 1 when leaders gathered in Paris & pledged to keep warming BELOW 1.5C.
He’s now 11, & we’re spending our second year ABOVE 1.5C.
They’ve doomed all our children because preserving a suicidal economy is more important.
We. Should. Be. Furious.
If you are disabled, there are things that you can’t do, and you know what? That’s okay. You don’t have to be exactly what others expect of you. Protect your body and mind.
Trauma recovery that pretends all trauma, or potential sources of trauma, are in the past, is not sustainable.
Our recovery strategy & tools have to realistically account for ongoing traumatic stress, complex & otherwise.
The United Nations Commission of Inquiry found that Israel is committing a genocide against the Palestinian people in Gaza. In its report it concluded:
When we are f*cked up & discouraged, we don't need a lecture, from ourselves or anybody else.
We need presence, realistic compassion, & reconnection to our goals & values in language that reminds us that everybody who has ever successfully recovered has been where we are.
One of the most exhausting experiences for CPTSD survivors is trying to work our recovery in a world where many people think the degree to which we're affected by trauma or struggle w/ symptoms is determined by "character" or "attitude."
(It isn't.)
Maybe you didn't f*ck up. Maybe you responded to that trigger w/ skills & bandwidth you had at the time. Maybe that's not an "excuse"-- it's a description of reality.
Maybe your abusers have programmed you to reflexively beat yourself up to keep you distracted & discouraged.
Not only do fascists not care about hypocrisy, they relish in it. They love it, they celebrate. They’re overjoyed at being able to do things to the left and the marginalized that they would never want done to them. That’s what it’s all about.
Not all our choices have been perfect-- but the choices we've made have kept us alive, & have brought us to exactly this moment, in which we have the opportunity to meaningfully think about what we want & need next in our trauma recovery.
That's not nothing. That's significant.
In 2022, we learned reinfections increase ALL of the risks—regardless of vaccination status. The damage & risks are cumulative.
Each episode of reinfection DOUBLES the risk of death & TRIPLES the risk of hospitalization, clotting, & cardiac events.