Every once in a while I return to this evergreen quote from John Piper:
"Occasionally, weep deeply over the life that you hoped would be. Grieve the losses. Feel the pain. Then wash your face, trust God, and embrace the life that he’s given you."
@AshFarms The Bible you got is fine. Start with the Gospel of John.
No, Jesus didn’t come to America…you just focus on one chapter of John a day, and you’ll be fine.
DM if you have questions