i was saying
once i achieved everything i spend everything for my parents, for a house for me in the woods, for clothes i like
everything while hoping to find the one
see imma explain what im gonna do with my future
all useless content is going away, slowly ill try to hang out less with people i dont like
ill try everything in my power to make money
ill try to be as independent as possible
and once i ve achieved everything
i literally dont want anyone now
if someone wants me they re more than welcome to contact me and build a relationship with me
however if i didnt write you first in these late weeks i most probably dont need you
i m really like splitting up from everyone
i dont like hanging with people anymore
cause i finally understood thats not a natural need for me
i needed it just because i hoped to suppress my emotions
staying alone or with a person who can share my thought process is better
i ve always considered and knew that im a good looking guy, apart from my body i knew i could be liked
however i always felt bad for ugly people cause it d hurt me so much to be ugly
if i imagine myself in an ugly body plus my fucked up mind i dont know what d i do
i hate that for a bitch understanding i gotta be someone who im not
and if i am who i am
myself dont work right cause of a trauma
i cant trust myself nor others
i feel so far away from everyone
so distanced
so misunderstood
and still i know im not the only one
and i hate it cause i dont believe people feel how i feel it