I made peace with impermanence, with the inevitability of change. Life, for me, has been a collection of moments—to gather as many good ones as I can. I don't know what that makes me: broken, coward, nonchalant, selfish. But I know this much. I'll always be true to the moment.
It's easy to succumb to the notion, that only lasting things were ever truly real. Yet even we, in these bodies, have to go at some point: does it mean we never existed? That our joys and sorrows after our demise were any less compelling than the living?
I don't want to center permanence in my relationship with people, or with the world around me. Especially, when the only thing that permanence guarantees me is impermanence. If I were immortal, I might cling to these fleeting waves more.
But I'll die. I might as well live. Even if just a little. And it will bruise some people, and I'll get bruised. I think that's what they call living.
That's what they call living: the laughs between the bruises. The bruises too.
TWO ARRESTED, 213 STOLEN PHONES RECOVERED IN TRANS NZOIA
Detectives from the Directorate of Criminal Investigations (DCI) in Trans Nzoia County have arrested two suspects linked to the handling of suspected stolen mobile phones following an intelligence-led operation in Lessos.
Acting on credible information, officers from the Crime Research and Intelligence Bureau (CRIB), supported by personnel from Matisi Police Station, raided a residence near Airport Church in Lessos. The operation led to the arrest of Silas Wanjala (24) and Job Kiberenge Sikuku (28), who remain in custody.
A total of 213 mobile phones of assorted makes and models were recovered, alongside a Pandora machine suspected to be used in mobile phone reprogramming and three HP laptops. All items have been secured as exhibits pending forensic analysis.
Investigations are ongoing to establish the source of the devices and identify other members of the network. The suspects will be arraigned upon completion of investigations.
The DCI reiterates its commitment to dismantling organized criminal networks and curbing the illegal trade in electronic devices. Members of the public are urged to remain vigilant and report suspicious activities through established reporting channels.
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Man, I don't have much to say lately. It's a chaotic world. The poor marry, so do the rich. Some die, some are born. I ate meat, I ate veggies. I lost my job, but I got another. And I love it in nature, man. The ocean, the trees: they do something to me, man.
And when I am running, the wind feels like therapy in my face. I also concluded that I have no type, no mechanical standards with people: everybody is an experience. A book I unravel. There are times I wished the novel would go on forever, but I guess I am no life's author: I am only a reader. I can only exist in the moment. Not focus too much on the ending.
There are women I thought I would marry, man. And I loved holding their hands, kissing their foreheads. But I guess it was never meant to be. And it is sad, but it's life, man. That's the joy of it. To feel with abandon. Then heal just as resolutely.
I used to believe I was entirely good. But I got blocked for the first time this year, so I guess I can't be all that. When I tell my stories, I am an angel and rainbow, but I must have hurt people in my past, and I guess I am a little heartbroken by it. I wanted to be perfect. And I always meant well but intentions never count when we hurt people, do they?
And I want to live with the rules, man. But they are so exhausting. Do this, and do that and they still don't guarantee shit. Because after all of it, I am still going to die. You could do everything right, and still lose. And that's just how it is. That's just how it is.
So I guess my only rule is living for now. I will be more pessimistic when I give up. But I have hope still. I see myself with a nice house somewhere with a lot of trees, man. Someone I will wake up to and call "baby". I mean it's stupid when you think it up, but what's the alternative, man? Wake up to a fucking cactus in a pot in my 40s?! Call a cat "honey"?
And my friends look at me and say,"you are too white, brother". Too romantic for life. But I am not the one chasing emptiness with gin. Night after night with nothing to show for it, except bland tales about the pretty girl at the bar, and the big boys that spend cash like it's water. Knowing everything about everyone except ourselves. Chasing everything but us, man. Living vicariously through others, delegating our existence to another. Like a man who has love at home, but won't stop lamenting doomed love. Parroting hell for relevance until he becomes the statistic he spoke into life.
And why must it always be investment. Can't even spend my money in peace. Everybody is preaching and the gospel is all stacking it up. But I saw a local dude in some torn shorts, with his wife and kids in Lamu, laughing to their last teeth by the beach. I mean it's not much, and it could be better. But it's not nothing. Right? We are not going to be dollar millionaires, and I guess that's fine, man. We don't have to be to live life. Most of us won't. But we can still be loved. We can still eat and drink. And that's what they call living, man. So I don't want to talk about the latest cars and flashiest watches. I will settle for the occasional laughter God sends my way.
Until I have lost the light in me, then I will join you. But for now, I want to live. I want to wake up with some excitement. I want to exercise, man. I want to dream. I can't be mechanical about it. I am not a car. Just another dude, who a million years from now won't mean shit. But I've got to live. I've got to live.
Congratulations 20 Para Battalion for the successful event of Trooping the Colour during this year's Jamhuri Day in a powerful display of dedication, duty and sacrifice. The discipline, courage and unwavering commitment to service set the highest standard of excellence and inspire all who serve alongside you. May you continue to uphold the honor and pride of the Kenya Defence Forces in every mission. Congratulations!