Happy men’s mental health awareness month.
Too many of us keep our feelings and thoughts to ourselves just because we are made to believe its “normal” or “masculine” only to realize it’s the most unhealthy thing to do.
So i decided to share a bit of my feelings with you today.
I struggled so much with mental health for the past year and I kept so much to myself that it has broken me to a point where I could no longer stand on my own two legs.
I believed I was strong, and honestly I really was. I could take every hit in my life, stand back up and keep going. Over and over and over again. For years on end I would get knocked down just for me to stand back up and spit in the face of life itself. I could move on with a smile on my face, knowing it would be okay. Eventually that smile stopped coming…
But then, just when I thought i was at the peak of it all. Everything in my life fell apart, it felt like the pillars I set up to support me started crumbling upon me, the foundation that i have been living on has been swept away under my feet. The house I had build in my mind to live in, was gone. With nothing left to support myself, i was starting to feel lost.
The walls i put up, fell apart. The defenses I learned to live with, were useless. I felt so lost in this big world. It felt like my sun has already set when in some cases I feel like it hasn’t even tried rising yet.
Whilst this is not initially tied to my chronic illness, being always injured and having your body be constantly healing has definitely had an impact on my mental health. I started living in pain, both physically and mentally.
I have sought help, therapy and learned to speak my feelings to my close friends, it has supported me tremendously so far to keep going.
Unfortunately i don’t think I will ever become the person again I was before this, now I merely have to learn how to live with who I am now. But i’m okay with that. It’s the life I will have to accept.
And with that, my advice to all:
Seek help if you need it, your feelings are valid, don’t try to endure it because of some stupid fucking stigma or “masculine” standard. Start caring for yourself before its too late. ❤️
Someone is working on a SNES-era demake of FFXVI and it's looking great!
Just played through the "demo" portion and it really is a faithful 1:1 adaptation of FFXVI using the graphics & gameplay of SNES-era FF titles complete with an overworld map, party and random encounters 😲
@DireRavennn Honestly, I liked it too way back when. Even without the newer quality of life things they've added since!
Just imagine, if ARR was this good and you're only roughly 1/4-1/3 of the way through... then how good are the following expansion stories? ^.^
On the bright side, I was intent on starting from the ground up with a most of my vfx mods once Evolved Mode jobs come out with Evercold.
I've learned A LOT since I first made Floral Blitz and I want to use those lessons to improve my old work 💕