Saying “I love you” and talking about a future with your partner, then abruptly leaving their life, is one of the cruelest things you can do to another human being.
And no, your childhood trauma doesn’t justify blindsiding someone who trusted you.
When I like someone, I instantly start going too hard… I be too available, too giving, too loyal, too thoughtful, too reliable. I need to slow down and only be what someone is to me… that’s my problem, I always love how I want to be loved, hoping it gets reciprocated.
The thing about casual sex is it has little to no appeal to a real lover. The thought of having sex with someone I do not care deeply for feels so hollow and meaningless