After finding out, i was confused of what i was feeling.
My hands where shaking, my mind noisy but my heart was finally calm and this has been the most peaceful i have felt
the longing and yearning finally stopped
I feel like I'm cheating. 🫠
Di ako maka work ng second job ko kasi bawal malaman ng first job that the other job still exists.
Ngaun kasama ko mga ko librarians ko sa kwarto and i cant do my usual work without them getting suspicious 😭
Nakakadiri, nakakarindi, nakakasuka na i am now using the same excuses someone once said to me.
I understand more how shallow and selfish those reasons are now.
I may say na it's for them but deep down I made a mistake and i just don't want to admit it