@Kelsisheren@TuckerCarlson Really. Interesting. So I could buy life insurance and then pick my MAID death day & my beneficiaries would still be paid out? That’s an $$$$ incentive for people. Also oddly weird that the insurance companies would agree to pay out??? Follow the money
17 year ago today I went into labour, on my 16th birthday. 3 days later I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. I thought I was saved from the horror I was living, being raped daily by gangs of men for years. I thought that we would both be saved and we would get to a safe place and live happily ever after. Instead they took her from me because "i was exposed to a pedophile ring and it wasnt safe for a child", yet they left me there to carry on being raped.
17 years ive lived without her. Without knowing where she is or if she is even alive. Ive missed her first everything. I sometimes lay and imagine hiw she will look or what she is like. There will always be a part of me missing that went when they took her. There will always be grief for every second I live without her in my life, and no amount of justice will ever bring that back. No amount of accountability on failings will ever fix that.
Every year on my birthday I struggle knowing that 3 days later im missing her birthday and that its another year added onto my grief.
This year has been harder than normal with everything else going on and the trauma this has all dragged up for me.
Im normally the strong one. The one that picks things up for the others and helps them fight. Thats there listening to them and helping them through their suffering. But right now im barley even getting through each day and I feel like im letting everyone down.
Im trying to pick myself back up and face everything head on but its not as easy as I wish it was. Im 33 year old today and what happened to me as a child still haunts each and every day, each and every dream and every part of my life. Its left scars that will never heal and a burden thats hard to carry. Im sorry to everyone thats having to deal with seeing my statuses as I know they are alot different lately than they normally are but I really think its important that people understand the level of trauma left for the victims to deal with and the failings still coming along with that. Everyone sees me holding things together on TV and fighting all the time, but in reality I still have to deal with so much that sometimes the load can become unbearable.
Recently is one of them times.