Itโs been a while but still in the same dilemma. He wants sex without condoms but I want to be protected at all times. He canโt even make me his girlfriend but wants unprotected sex like how does that make any sense ๐
I donโt wanna be in love for a while. People talk to me and I either ignore them or just donโt believe a single word they say. I canโt open up anymore, it fucked me over
All I can do is Let Go and Let God because I have hope that my perfect person is out there waiting to love me properly and receive my love. Itโs a wrap folks *cue finale music* ๐๐
All I know is that Karma is real and heโs going to have to face that. I canโt accept anything from him anymore or even pretend to be happy for him. He got his girl and now he can just be with her.
You clearly said that she is your soulmate so just leave me tf alone. I have absolutely no reason to be in your life. He tryna get his way and itโs not fair. Only reason we were still talking was cause she ainโt geographically here in America.
AND?!?!! He said they were always friends when I had asked him before he said they donโt talk and arenโt friends. He is always lying and Iโm actually done with all that. Itโs not fair to have me in your life and you be with her. Life doesnโt work that way.
So he had a talk with her yesterday and he said he would tell me what they talked about and now heโs saying itโs his business and hasnโt told me anything. Boys are stupid fam
Nelly vs Karena ๐๐ whole time it was never a competition because she (Nelly) won. Itโs always been her Mrs.Kesse lol he only chose me because Iโm closer geographically but let her have been staying in MD it would have been Karena who?! ๐๐
Iโm scared to say this but idk what E has to do for me to fully leave him. We established we are friends and Iโm happy but I know when he finds his girl that boy will have no problem dropping me
Itโs like I wanna be in love but than again I donโt want to be hurt again and trust someone. Iโm definitely reverting back to my old ways which isnโt good because I did not open up at all
In my life right now I have no expectations for anyone. God will take care of it because I refuse to stress over situations that are beyond my control. Definitely gotta work on my trust and abandonment issues but right now my sole focus is me. I need to make sure Karenaโs good๐ฏ