The autistic experience of being genuine & thinking you had a real connection with someone — only to find out after a significant amount of time that it was one-sided & they actually just thought you were weird.
Arranged marriage is for those who can't even find one person to stick with them on their own. You are a loser already if you're going for arranged marriage.
Not to sound delusional, but please pray for grace. Life isn't really about hard work. It's more about alignment, meeting the right people, grace, mercy and favour.