She/her | 25+ | Gets too invested in fictional universes | Working on @ClaraOswaldTUA | Avatar by @tousinthetardis | Acct hanging in there for Yellowjackets 🐝
@blazinginsquids@BurningReborn Though in Jackie’s case I think she was really getting close to before the end, but she couldn’t quite reach that point and retreating back into the lie is what does her in
@blazinginsquids@BurningReborn Yeah that’s exactly it, really well put! The walls around the truth are paper thin but they’ll both willingly keep them up because they can’t bring themselves to accept it, and the longer times goes on the less willing they are to drop the facade for themselves
@BurningReborn So like, I think her thought process is less ‘I’m gay’ and more ‘something is wrong with me and if I examine it too much I will die’. She knows she loves Shauna but the thought of that being any more than deep friend love terrifies her so she deflects and obfuscates
@BurningReborn I think she knew but also didn’t. Like her awareness of it on some subconscious level is what made her so afraid and repressed, even without being able to truly understand it. It’s a cognitive dissonance she put all her effort into ignoring
I also misremembered it this way ! and tbf I think us feeling it shld be a bible says something interesting abt the flight manual being a stand-in for a religious text; Laura Lee’s conviction that reading it was enough, but applying knowledge (or faith) is a whole other challenge
She’s so funny getting all performatively squeamish over butchering a deer leg only to smear its blood all over her forehead in the same episode. Fake priss
my LAST comment - as the response to this was that i was apparently tracing my line art (which i wouldn't be able to hide in ibis paint btw) - here's a quick sketch on paper as i jst want this to be over.
I'm not the best at shading with pencil which is why i do digital art..
yellowjackets being a show abt how refusing to confront your own darkness makes it ungovernable and dangerous, but people don't understand it, so they can't see the irony in themselves shying away from the darkest most self-confronting parts of the story. absolute masterpiece rly