Trash (Raccoon)

TW Sh | 25 | I'm not proud of any of this | minors DNI | no compliments | no asking for tips

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Uncensored versions on tele.

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This sucks.

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This was never gonna be a good month for me, but it just seems to be getting worse and worse and I can feel myself getting more and more tempted to just say fuck it all.

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Feeling like shit. Trying to fight it, but it would be so much easier to go on a downwards spiral rn.

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But lots of little things that having been giving me a really boost. Feeling more motivated atm than I have done in a long long time. 3/3

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A positive update for once. Nothing major has happened, but I finished the group dbt, I really weren't sure i was gonna make it to the end coz anxiety has been making it really really hard to go outside, but i made it. I've been managing housework everyday for the few weeks, 1/3

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and slowly starting to declutter and organise. I've managed to do some admin kinda bits this week. Anxiety is still pretty bad atm, but I made it outside and back without a single panic attack the other week, so I'm hoping it's gonna start to improve. Nothing massive 2/3

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I think I feel shitty.

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The amount of effort and energy I've put into not sh the past couple of weeks hardly seems worth it icl.

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I hate myself so much. I become more and more inadequate with every day that passes.

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Stress. Slight less stress. More stress. Less stress. Extreme stress.
It never fucking stops.

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Able to have my support workers go with me, but my therapist has said she can call me for the duration of my uber, which I think should help a bit. I don't wanna get my hopes up, but it would be amazing to have week without a panic attack. 3/3

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Anxiety and panic attacks suddenly got really bad again a couple of months ago and I've been really struggling with it. I've been trying not to avoid things, but I've cancelled a lot of appointments recently coz of it. Been feeling so defeated, but I've had 2 successful 1/3

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Outings (some anxiety but no major panic attacks) since last week. I'm not expecting things to be perfect from here, but I'm so glad to have had a couple of wins. I really really need it. I've got an appointment on Thursday which I'm nervous about, coz I don't think I'll be 2/3

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A lot of this would be helped by continuing to reduce sh, but I'm so annoyed at myself that that's all I wanna do. I hate my stupid, backwards fucking brain. 2/2

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Make it make sense. My recent blood tests shows my hb and a few other things has dropped again (nowhere near the worst it's been, but I was hoping it had atleast maintained) and I now also have another new deficiency. 1/2

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Uncensored on tele.

Two weeks worth of shrinkage.

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@CoolGuy03030 It's from just above my elbow to my forearm.

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From a few days ago.
About 50/50 fascia and fat, with a tiny bit of tendon scratched.

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@RewiredChaos Those flower ones look beautiful! What d'you use the stickers for?

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New healing update on my tele.

https://t.co/BcJMwEBiUP

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Tw, uncensored on tele.

Healing update from last night, doing well.