"There are people I once thought would be in my life forever, who would never change. And now they aren't in my life anymore and everything has changed."
I'll continue to support iKON. I'll still enjoy their music and follow them on their journey. Just quietly. I don't want to engage in the fangirl life anymore. Maybe I'll change my decision later, but for now... I'm gonna take a step back.
I don't think I can do this anymore. Even after this all will be over, I don't think I'll be able to stay here. The fangirl life, the kpop world... it's too much for me. I'll patiently wait till the case is over and then I'll leave. No more stan twitter.
I don't know what the future holds. I really don't know. But right now I just want the truth more than anything. I want this to be over. I want justice for the victims. And I want everyone involved to be punished.
I'm losing even the tiny little hope I've left. I feel like my whole world is crashing down. Nothing will be the same again. I'm slowly accepting the reality. And it hurts. And I'm so disappointed. And sad.
But that doesn't mean that I'm gonna defend him or anything like that. If he's guilty, I hope he'll face all the consequences and accept the punishment. And maybe later he'll change and be better. I don't know.