I have made my decision to retire from gposing for the foreseeable future. I don't want to say permanently because who knows what the future holds.
I haven't decided what to do with my account yet, but I most likely will be just reweeting stuff and posting random things.
Thank you all for the support, but I think this chapter has reached an end for now.
I hate that I feel so blah. Itโs been getting worse and worse. Iโve practically stopped reaching out to people and I feel horrible about it.
But at the same time? Iโm tired and burnt out. Why? I donโt know.
Part of me wants to gpose again too butโฆstill no motivation.
My therapist told me:
โWhen a person grows up feeling unseen, they learn to love by over-giving. They pour into everyone else, hoping that, one day, someone will finally pour back into them. So they become the care taker. The fixer. The one who shows up, even when no one shows up for them.โ
And the hardest part? Deep down, they're not trying to be strong. They're just waiting for someone to do for them what they've spent their whole life doing for everyone else.