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[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

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[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

I'm going to lose my mind. I've had my eye on this one particular university for years and even applied for housing already. Now he's talking about going there too and getting all excited about it.

I never told him about my plans, so yeah this is definitely going to look bad.

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

I don’t mind driving him places, but it made me really sad that I had to drive him to pick up a rental car for a day out with another woman, because that’s exactly what I’ve wanted for myself

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

I've been asking for an actual date for ages. Meanwhile, the guy who has no car rented one specifically to go out of his way to pick up a female acquaintance so they could go swimming at a lake together. How lovely.

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

He already had the trip planned when he asked if I was free yesterday evening, which means he already knew he'd be kicking me out early this morning

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

my Syrniki are melting help

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

Am I seeing correctly??!

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

I like coding silly things for myself, even though they're terrible

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

I had to be up ridiculously early for an appointment anyway, so I just didn't sleep and decided to use the opportunity to finally do the thing I'd been wanting to do all week.

Naturally, I did everything except that...

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

This is what the forest looks like to me every time it gets hot during summer.

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

@Korlane2 Thanks for asking! It was fine in the end🙏

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

I took my pills in the dark tonight and now I'm wondering if I grabbed the wrong ones 🫠

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

I fucked up and miscalculated how much medication I had left, and now I'm suffering through a miserable weekend because of it yipiehhhh

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

It's strange how seeing anything related to the major I had to drop out of can still make my stomach drop instantly 🥲

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

Why ask me what I want if you've already decided which dreams are acceptable and which ones aren't?

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

Then I'm told to just get a secure 9-to-5, that life isn't a fairytale, that I won't make it the way other people do because I'm too shy and it'll get me nowhere.

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

And if I talk about something I actually want to pursue, they question whether I even have a chance and guilt-trip me because it would mean moving far away from home.

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

They insist they're not pushing anything onto me, but get genuinely offended when I say I don't want to work at a pension insurance company and demand to know why.

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

I'm so tired of being pressured every single day by my parents to explain in detail what I want to do with my future, only to have every answer picked apart.

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

Maybe it's just me, but cafés that also function as stores are weirdly uninviting...

[Noelie⚔️ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁 @VelvetInSecret]

Just looked at the physical requirements for a job I'd really like to apply for