Ventdor

e-eyo,, it's Frogdor, and welcome to the low effort zone...
for much higher quality tweets, go to my main @Fr0gd0r

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i am very upset with the fact that i'll never get to be a mom,
even if it was possible i probably would never be ready to handle that responsibility, but still... what little experience i've had with kids was so very sweet,.,.

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they need to invent a way to off yourself that only upsets the people you're mad at

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I should be sent to the gallows
where the people watching would cheer as it happens, only in that brief moment would I finally get my applause

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things have been going pretty great for me lately

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one of these days I'm gonna burn every bridge and shut out 95% of my online presence, it is exceedingly obvious that I never fit in among artists, and any attempts I have made to claw for respect and attention just ends up hurting me, why bother, I was born a talentless nepo baby

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i feel so horrendously empty right now for no reason, i dont get any enjoyment out of anything i cant bring myself to do anything,
what the hell i was literally fine and drawing a bunch yesterday and i just have already crashed

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welp I had like two days there of being able to draw, got a good handful of comic pages sketched out, and already my drive has completely crashed out,,,

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I Know the real reason is just because i didnt explicitly ask for a arttrade,
but the problem is i will Never ask, I lack the confidence in my drive to make something on the fly like that, it only shows up once a bluemoon and whatever my inspiration happens to be is pure random

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i Know this is an incredibly selfish line of thinking, but boy howdy does it hurt to make giftart for a friend multiple times in a row, and then see them go do multiple arttrades with someone else.

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like!!! it's really lame to think of art as a transactional thing like that, nobody should "owe" someone anything just for fanart!

but dammit it still makes it feel my stuff has such less value compared to everyone else when I'm the only one not worthy of a response.

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need a comically large button that shuts off all messenger and social media access for me so I can get the satisfaction of abruptly cutting everyone off without the long term consequences of being a vindictive instinctively self-isolating bitch

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it is Impossible for me to ever feel content, I will Always be the most Unreasonable Envious and spiteful bitch imaginable

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do not enjoy how often my impulsive defeatist instinct to abruptly forever shut myself off from basically any online communities I'm a part of has been calling to me lately

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bleehhg I am a pathetic child that throws temper tantrums the instant she gets put under even the most pathetically minuscule amount of pressure,
a flake a disappointment to the ones I love or who've shown me even an ounce of compassion, all I'm fit for is wallowing in a pit

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@BigSadBeef s a a m e .,.,. gone through this urge Many a time before...

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been Awhile since I’ve needed to use this account huh! guess who found her happiness biiiiitch!!!!!
things have been Going Good for me lately :>

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mmh the temptation to stick my whole hand in the boiling pot of water

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fuck I'm such a cheap slut, nothinh will ever make me truely happy

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god I cant even fixate on my crushes anymore, just knowing how pathetically small and childish my feelings are in comparison to their actual fully realized lives.
how terrible I am at reaching out, even after spending an evening with them I feel so far apart.

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if I ever own a home I am going to punch and kick So Many holes in the walls