trying to get the medical care that I need should never, ever be this hard. I shouldn't have to contend with such predatory practices from providers, I shouldn't have to deal with insurance that would rather I just die than get the care that I deserve, I shouldn't have to be making hasty medical decisions to speedrun transition in the midst of an active g*n*c*de against my community. This is all too much. Happy Pride to me; I hate it here.
go donate to my surgery fund. link below.
This is your (and My) reminder not to burn yourself out or break yourself over other peopleβs expectations, ESPECIALLY if youβre disabled. Do what you can, take care of yourself, survive. Donβt carry the weight of the world and focus on building your future.
Recently social media has been so scary and with all the chaos in My personal life I just keep popping up and disappearing to try maintain some sanity
I genuinely might take a break, Iβve been wanting to stay active to support all My peers during all the chaos in the world
I will be returning to the main soon. Life has been sh*t. Iβm gonna say f*ck it and focus on My success and healing π€ I hope all of My lovely dom mutuals have been well and thriving, Iβve missed you guys!
Having CPTSD means wanting to hide away from the world and protect yourself, whilst also wanting to share your experiences and feel seen. Itβs incredibly conflicting and itβs hard to know how to release those feelings.
To the sub asking what I mean by lovebombingβ¦ lovebombing can be done with/without intention. There are lots of subs who will flatter and overwhelm a dom with admiration in initial phases/when returning from a break; they may make huge promises that they want to commit their life to the dom or promising big sends when xyz happens. Sometimes itβs done to try get special treatment, sometimes itβs done when subs are overwhelmed with lust/excitement and mistake those feelings for genuine passion for true submission. Either way these subs end up falling short of the promises or they begin to become less interested when they realise long term takes β¦ dedication and work. Lots of doms are let down very regularly, even by high paying subs and what always makes this worse is when the sub doesnβt communicate honestly when they are having second thoughts.
Daily reminder to doms that subs are not afraid to lovebomb you if it means special treatment π€
Even subs who follow the protocols of tribute, polite messages etc still have the ability to try and manipulate
Always treat a sub based off of what they are doing - not what they are promising!