Vlad 🦇 (shtwt)

Vent account. He/Him + 21. I don't have anyone to talk to so I'm going to talk to myself, thanks. No Minors please.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

If I’m not better by the time I’m 25, I’m going to take my life. I will take enough pills to overdose, whilst using a razor blade to cut up my body as much as I want to let out my last emotions and satisfy myself. I will then slowly die, maybe in my bedroom. I’m currently 22.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

Turns out he doesn’t. Instead he’s jacking off to AI photos of my friends.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

Do you still think I’m sexy? Do you even fantasise about me anymore?

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

I’m so full of rage and anger at so many things and there’s little I can do about everything.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

Relapsed

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

@unhatchedcrypti I’ve also come back, crazy timing

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

@unhatchedcrypti I’ve always wondered what the damage would look like

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

1 more year to go

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

I want to cut it feels so good I have nothing else better to do

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

I don’t want to make him miserable becuase I’m miserable. I just want to downward spiral but I feel bad doing it while he’s around. I don’t want him to go away, but I want to engage in bad behaviour.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

I just don’t understand why I can never be satisfied

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

Please come love me. Every night I fall asleep waiting for you. All you do is play games. Please come be with me, kiss me, show me you still obsess over me.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

My scars are slowly fading. All it makes want to do is get worse again.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

@bloodydolls444 If you don’t mind, could you show how you bandage it up? I always stress and struggle to deal with cuts like this

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

@bloodydolls444 How much did it hurt once the adrenaline wore off?

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

@bloodydolls444 Oh wow I always was curious about cig burns, thanks :)

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

@bloodydolls444 How much did it hurt?

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

How do I get him to want to have sex with me?

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

I wish I could hold him softly in my arms and make him feel loved

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

I shouldn’t say this shit. He does so much for me. I don’t know why so often I feel unloved and untouched. I wish I would stop overthink. I feel like I’ll always feel alone and isolated with my brain and emotions. I yearn to love and be loved. Love is all I ever think about.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

Please just come use me so I can feel like I’m worth something.

[Vlad 🦇 (shtwt) @VladimirScum]

Do you still think I’m sexy? Do you even fantasise about me anymore?