2018
Iโm waiting for a ct scan
I break down crying in the waiting room
I feared the cancer was back
I was unfortunately right
Next was surgery, IV chemo, and disability, and no right to ever adopt a child in my lifetime, so Iโm supposed to just be grateful, everyday, to exist
Why do we go like sheep to pray to a God who allows his creations to do the horrible things they do to each other? And don't give me that "free will" crap as an excuse. Bottom line, it exists because he allows it too.