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[V @Vvx_022]

Intro post yay

Hi, I'm V, I'm 20 and this is sort of a vent account? Just somewhere to put my thoughts and interact with similar people
I've had issues with disordered eating since I was a preteen :(
Pro-recovery!
Also I'm very awkward and nervous about everything ever so soz 💔

[V @Vvx_022]

I wanna be more interactive here so bad but I feel so. Idk. Guy who nobody invited 🧏🏻‍♂️

[V @Vvx_022]

Still paranoid that everything I've lost is just water weight or some bs. I haven't noticed any changes at all physically and it's worrying me

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Yes I've been the same height since 13 it's tragic

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Weird to think when I was like. 13ish I weighed over 160lbs.... Then I randomly lost 20lbs without trying?? Somewhere between 14-16. But I didn't grow any taller during that tho? Like what happened there

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@coradonnell10 Yess, the brownie is microwaved too hehe

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You'd think this would be higher than 154c but it's not? It's great (halo top and fibre brownie

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I've officially lost 10lbs in a month???

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I'm still a bit nervous to post anything about myself but... Finally out of the 140s!

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128.4 let's go

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I'm so annoying sometimes?... Instead of giving in to the urge to binge I just. Took a single bite of a bunch of different things. Once again, whyd I do that.

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Idk why I'm so hungry today?? Just wanna eat everything. Shut up bro.

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Omg

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Just edging me now... I've been the same weight for over a week and im so close to being in the 120s 😭

[JΛCΞ @jaceels2]

i automatically assume everyone finds me unattractive until they tell me otherwise and then i assume that they are lying to make fun of me

[V @Vvx_022]

Just edging me now... I've been the same weight for over a week and im so close to being in the 120s 😭

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I've eaten a ton the past few days and have been severely lacking on my steps.... I haven't gained any weight. What a relief

[V @Vvx_022]

I've been doing everything I can do change it. I've detransitioned, I'm losing weight, I'm changing my face, hiding my interests, and still people only ever see me as a way to get to her. That is if they even see me in the first place.

[V @Vvx_022]

Having everything I've ever wanted in front of me, knowing It's not ever gonna be something I can have is. Cruel. The universe is cruel. I don't know what it is that makes me so fundamentally different and undeserving of something people just get handed to them.

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I love my best friend but her sheer perfection makes me wanna kill myself so bad

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Depression episode... Panic attacks, and got sleep paralysis for the first time in forever. That's great. Thanks brain.

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Stuck constantly feeling like these 2 images

[V @Vvx_022]

Got drunk, had a breakdown, got drunker, at some point had McDonald's, and yet according to my calculations... I didn't go past 1300cals. That's a plus...? Surely can't gain too much from that....?....???....?? The steps, however, are a different story. Tomorrow's a new day....