Itβs a fatal mistake to copy what brings joy to someone else and paste it into your life. It never works, because every blessing comes with its curses, and people never show off the curses.
You look at an unemployed single woman on multiple vacations. Each photo you click brings you pain. Each #blessed #godsplan hashtag makes the chapati and ndondo making its 5th appearance in a week taste like a cure for chicken pox. But she doesnβt show you the bill. She fails to show you the Russian guy behind it doing some first-in-her-line things to her.
Before you breathe, you see a Luo man guiding you through the green lands of Limuru tea β aaaah, the ndondo soup now tastes like cabbage water.
You run home to get some reprieve. You find your schoolmate with kids your age and a wife he introduces as βGodβs gift to humanity.β But he doesnβt tell you that 3 of the 4 kids are not his, and the one that is his is not hers.
In the process, you lose yourself trying to copy everyone who seems successful, while others try to copy you.
Be yourself, no matter how unpopular that might be. It's better to alive late to your own home that Early to someone elses. Good morning from ndeiyashire
The way out of the loop is to identify one behavior that doesn't match who you want to be and change it. Not all at once just one then another then another until your actions become the evidence of your identity. It's not easy but it's the only way.