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Nothing Left to Love

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I am about to be the biggest fucking simp in the world for this girl every day

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I SECURED THE FUCKING BAG LOL NO WAY

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Her and I fucked for the first time and it was like the hottest most passionate sex I've had in... idk maybe ever. Maybe I'm just super attracted to her but damn we were literally both physically shaking from how turned on we were and that's so hot to Me.

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YO KEEP SMILING AT YOUR PHINE HOMIE HOLY SHIT THIS IS HOW IT HAPPENS IM SO EXCITED YES DUDE GENUINELY FUCK YES DUDE

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Stop smiling at your phone you dummy this is how it happens

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Might need to distance out a bit

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Lmao in talking to this girl and I'm terrified of her.

Not like she's scary but like.... her ability to grab my heart has always been a little bit too good and I really don't want it to happen.

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God wrote the scariest, most brutal story I could ever imagine, and he let me live it.

There's a lesson in it. I appreciate him demanding greatness from me. Will I rise above the crowd? Will I be judged by he?

I hope that when I hit those gates, he's found respect for me.

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I want to trust. I want to love. I want to feel like the world hasn't abandoned me with a shove. I want peace. I want some closure. I want to feel the warmth of another. So I'll sit, I'll pray and I'll beg, for a day where I feel whole again.

I'm rusted over with lust again

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I fuck up everything I touch.

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I believe in God but with every single passing day I get the hunch that God just doesn't believe in me

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Man there's a girl named Tori. I'm pretty into her, she adorable. Big brown eyes with a fun sense of humor. I'm a bitch and don't wanna tell her I have feelings. One can only hope it works out. But man, I definitely am into her.

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Stop romanticizing bullshit

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No one's fucking missing me.

No one.

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I'm a new toy that loses its shine and gets thrown away. I'm cool and exciting for 2 months then throw me in the closet and forget about me.

Leaving is so fucking easy. For everyone. It's so easy to remove me from your life and walk away. Why am I so easy to just abandon.

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I have everything people my age want except for the life part. I have a house. Woo. I have a stable job. Yay. But God dammit bro I feel like I'm so expendable in everyone's lives around me. Never worth being around. Never worth keeping around. Endless stream of acquaintances.

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Woe is me oh well boo hoo but

Being a dude fucking sucks sometimes man. You're just lonely, and no one gives a fuck. I'm so tired of being alone in a big ass house. Sharing it with no one. Sharing my life with nothing. Just motions. Garbage floating in the waves.

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Miserable.

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Fucking end me

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I want to love to make someone laugh

One day

Man I adore those I love in life.

One day closer to sharing it with you I guess

Oh well

Onto another happy one